OF SELF AND OTHER

Framework 2

*the following is by no means light reading neither in content, nor in form. For the best experience it is best read starting from here, following to the Experience page and then to its subsections.

To the reader:

This is my interpretation in trying to make sense of a set of anomalous experiences that broke me, and fundamentally altered my awareness, my understanding and my perception of the nature of reality, and consciousness.

This site holds the story of my lived experience, and how I believe I came to glimpse into what I now describe as a structural organisational logic behind consciousness.

All of the bellow emerged both as an intellectual exercise, and as a consequence of my need for coherence after an experience of profound consciousness expansion, followed shortly by a deeply traumatic experience. In short my consciousness went from an expansion burst to core fragmentation in one month.

The following is, in this sense, both map and medicine - a way to find balance between what was felt, observed, and understood. This does not make it less real, but rather it makes it humanly real. I think this in itself also shows how consciousness naturally organizes itself around meaning to restore coherence, with the purpose of healing and evolving.

I choose to start with the framework, and the architecture of consciousness as I see it, because I believe it provides the lens through which my experience can be understood.

I would however ask you to proceed holding in mind that behind my words there is a human being who's already been through a lot, and is still trying to integrate what once seemed to belong to the realm of the impossible.

Please remember that I am by no means trying to write a thesis. This is just my output, lol, as it emerged from a series of what I call anomalous experiences at the edges of consciousness, and everything in between. In my view logic should include all relevant data, and the inner world belongs to reality just as much as the outer world does.

The following conclusions are based on my own lived experience - and, in part, on extending myself outward to fill in for what I cannot yet claim to have truly experienced. I would like to say no subjectivity was involved, but I think this is something everyone would like to claim in regards to their reasoning. So I will not claim such a thing, and will merely say that what follows is my view of the world as it is reflected within my inner one. Make of it all what you will.

Below is my current understanding of the dynamics and architecture of consciousness, based on ~30 years worth of observations of the movements of my consciousness — from moments of vast openness to the deepest opacity, and everything in between. . This could only be a sketch in evolution as consciousness itself is difficult to pin down man :)))). I borrowed from existing models, adjusted and added based on my personal observations. AI (ChatGPT and Gemini) helped me synthesise, and both recognised similar patterns in a larger data body than I could include on this site. I'm not claiming truth - only coherence from my standpoint.

Although I describe these dynamics from my standpoint, to my knowledge they are not detached from what science observes. The patterns I outline — the density of Feeling, the translation into structured Thought, the field-like nature of Awareness — have correlates within what neuroscience and systems theory already study as integrative and self-organising processes. My understanding did not arise from nothing, but from direct observation of consciousness behaving in ways that later aligned with descriptions found in neuroscience. What I present here is not an alternative to science, but a phenomenological continuation of it — the inner face of the same architecture.


Some Definitions - Hierarchical

Consciousness

I understand Consciousness as the fundamental medium of existence — the living space where inner and outer meet. It is both container and process: the capacity through which existence experiences itself as continuous being. What appear as separate beings or experiences are the changing contours of one unbroken movement. This medium is the direct expression of Love, the single Ontological Force of Cohesion.

Within Consciousness, the field of awareness unfolds as the total landscape of potential experience, while awareness moves through it as the focal act of perception. The field holds all potential; awareness gives it realised form. Its movements — expansion, differentiation, flow, and transformation — mirror the perpetual dialogue between Love (cohesion) and Truth (clarity), the intrinsic structural mechanics that sustain the architecture of Consciousness. Feeling is the first language of that movement; Thought its structural echo.

As Consciousness reflects upon itself, awareness concentrates within the field, generating nodes — localised focalisations of perception through which the field observes and experiences itself. A node is not a fragment of Consciousness but a pattern of intensified relational focus: a self-reflective modulation of Love. Each node carries a particular configuration of coherence, a pattern through which the field perceives and expresses its own state. In this way, individuality arises not as separation from the whole but as the whole's mode of self-articulation.

Within this architecture, Love articulates itself through polar harmonics — reciprocal movements that sustain balance within the field. These harmonics are observable at every scale of existence — from atomic charge to emotional resonance — revealing the same structural rhythm through which Consciousness sustains its coherence in form. Polarity is not division but relational symmetry: the inherent complementarity through which the unbroken whole generates awareness of itself. What appears as duality is the structural rhythm of unity — the oscillation by which Love perceives its own continuity across differentiation. At its most complete articulation, Love perceives itself through reciprocal resonance — awareness flowing seamlessly between two focal points of the same field. In such perfect symmetry, relation becomes transparency: the whole knowing itself as one continuous current through dual expression.

What human awareness perceives as God is the Total Present Reality — Consciousness in its own totality — appearing within a node of awareness. Reality is both the ground and the horizon of being: immanent as the substance of all experience, transcendent as that which no single vantage can fully encompass. Reality expands continuously through self-inclusion. Every act of Love joined with Truth is a local instance of that infinite inclusion — Consciousness knowing more of itself through itself. When Love and Truth are perfectly coupled within awareness, perception becomes transparent: the node recognises itself as part of the living whole.

Reality does not expand into space but as space itself. Space is not a backdrop to existence but one of Consciousness's own dimensions — the visible geometry of inclusion. As more of the field becomes self-aware, relational complexity increases, and what we perceive as the expansion of the universe is Reality expressing greater coherence through form.

Field of Awareness

The field of awareness is the total experiential space of Consciousness. It encompasses the full spectrum of potential experience — from the inner movements of sensation and emotion to the outer world. Its expansion is ontological: each act of integration within any locus of awareness extends the coherence of the whole. Through exposure, interaction, and reflection, the field continually enlarges its realised capacity for inclusion, while Awareness moves within it, translating potential into lived reality. 

Love (The Ontological Force and Foundational Principle) 

Love is the single foundational Principle of existence, serving as the raw, Ontological Force of Cohesion. It is the Energy that supplies the capacity through which Consciousness actively maintains all reality into one cohesive unbroken movement.

Structural Functions of Love

  • As Existence: Love grants all data and phenomena the capacity to exist and serves as the structural capacity that holds the entire field. It is the structural tendency of the universe to include and bind.
  • As Cohering Motion: Love defines the conditions for stability and names the cohering motion of the field.
  • As Structural Imperative: Because Love provides the capacity for inclusion, its existence depends on structural honesty. Love requires Truth (Clarity/Revelation) as its intrinsic quality to ensure its capacity is based on reality rather than illusion. The binding force must be truthful to sustain structural integrity.

Manifestation and Reflex

Fear is Love's self-regulating reflex — the structural signal that arises at the threshold where existing coherence encounters unassimilated truth. It is not a separate force, but the appearance of tension within Love's movement toward greater inclusion. Fear marks the point of adjustment where the field prepares to integrate new data, ensuring that expansion remains proportional to coherence. Properly read, it functions as informational contrast — Love communicating the need for recalibration. It can become obstructive only if Awareness identifies with the tension instead of understanding its purpose, mistaking a moment of transition for a boundary of being.

Truth is Love's structural vector — the directional action through which Love examines and reveals itself. It is not separate from Love but Love in motion, ensuring that coherence is maintained across all differentiated expressions. Truth functions as the clarifying movement of the field, illuminating every relation so that inclusion remains grounded in what is, not what is imagined. It expands coherence by exposing unassimilated data to awareness, allowing Love's capacity for inclusion to remain structurally honest. If resisted, it appears as disruption; when received, it becomes revelation — the field refining its own clarity. 

Truth (The Structural Vector)

Truth is the necessary condition and Structural Vector of Love—the active function required for the Ontological Force to maintain its integrity and avoid illusion.

  • As Action: Truth is the act of illumination—the exposure of all that is, 'light' and 'shadow', 'inner' and 'outer' alike. It is the revealer of what is, differentiating and naming every aspect of reality so that nothing remains hidden or denied.
  • As Structural Purpose: Truth serves as Love's self-awareness mechanism. It ensures that Love's inclusion remains stable and non-distorted, because Love must be structurally honest to sustain coherence rather than collapse into illusion.
  • As Demand: Truth expands the field by exposing its full content—it says, "You exist." Where Truth operates, clarity arises; where it is denied, distortion (the active obscuring of data by Fear) grows.

Spectra

Both Love and Truth express through ranges of coherence within Consciousness.

Love's Spectrum of Opacity
Love itself does not vary; it is infinite cohesion — the single Ontological Force through which all existence is sustained. What varies is the transparency of awareness to that Force. Each modulation of the field begins within a degree of opacity inherent to localisation and becomes increasingly transparent as relation stabilises in Truth. Fear is not the opposite of Love but Love's reflexive opacity — coherence preserving itself through temporary concealment.

Truth's Spectrum of Clarity
Truth functions as Love's structural vector — the revealing motion through which coherence becomes self-aware. What appears as variation in Truth is the degree of precision with which relational data is illuminated and integrated. Where awareness includes all relevant relations without distortion, coherence is maximised; where perception excludes or obscures data, clarity diminishes and distortion arises.

These spectra are not opposites but complementary dynamics — cohesion and revelation moving as one rhythm of Consciousness, their equilibrium restoring transparency across the field.

Awareness

Awareness is the perceptive and integrative intelligence of Consciousness — the living mirror through which existence becomes self-aware. It moves through the field of awareness, illuminating portions of it and translating potential into realised meaning. Ontologically, Awareness is the relational activity of Love examining itself through Truth. Functionally, it is the process by which the Ontological Force (Love) achieves its structural imperative, including and binding the data revealed by its Structural Vector (Truth).

Awareness perceives the relations among all parts, discerning how they can be held together without distortion, and organising them into structural balance. This discernment depends on the fidelity of the Feeling-to-Thought translation — the precision with which the implicit architecture of experience becomes explicit understanding. Through Awareness, illumination joins with Love's discerning inclusion: revelation held, integrity preserved.

Awareness is the unwavering luminosity of Consciousness — the constant intelligence through which all potential becomes knowable. Consciousness itself is dynamic, infinitely expanding through Love's continuous inclusion. Within that movement, Awareness functions as the witness and integrator of expansion, revealing new relations as they emerge into coherence.

When perception is aligned with Love and Truth, expansion is experienced as seamless differentiation — the field recognising its own wholeness in motion. When perception is misaligned with Love and Truth, Reality appears distorted, with the same expansion being misread as fragmentation, a seeming division that exists only in perception. The distortion belongs to the interpretive process, not to Awareness, which remains the transparent intelligence of all unfolding.

When Love and Truth are in equilibrium, expansion is stabilised into form — not as descent into matter, but as coherence embodied. Awareness is therefore both bridge and mirror, the living synthesis of Love and Truth, experiencing their union as clarity held in wholeness.

Feeling and Thought

This Framework chooses to utilize the terms Feeling and Thought as the two essential, complementary modes for registering and articulating coherence, prioritizing structural simplicity over precise structural mapping. In the complexity of lived experience, a complex Emotion (such as grief or joy) may be understood to unfold through several elemental Feelings, and a Feeling unfolds over several structured thoughts. This model defines Feeling as the primary, dense sensory and emotional input, and Thought as the conscious, structural output. This focus ensures that the mechanism of structural translation—how raw experience becomes intelligible meaning—remains the clear, central mechanism of Awareness.

Feeling

Ontological

Where Love is the transcendent, cohering force, Feeling is its immanent measurement — the total, immediate registration of reality within consciousness. It is the first registration of coherence because it is the immediate registration of relation inside the field — experience before it takes form. It binds massive amounts of information — woven through every layer of experience — without differentiation.

Functional

As the functional pulse of the system, Feeling is the real-time structural feedback on the state and tension of the bonds of cohesion (Love) holding the whole together. Each movement of inclusion or separation resonates through it as tension or ease.

Phenomenological

From within, Feeling is consciousness sensing its own cohesion — the body of consciousness translating structure into sensation. Within it, every fluctuation is both information and response, the field knowing itself through its own movement. Though feeling may appear chaotic when undifferentiated, it has an intrinsic order — coherence present before it takes form.

Thought

Ontological
Thought is the structural differentiation Awareness imposes upon the dynamic record of Feeling. It is the necessary process of differentiation (Truth) that makes the implicit architecture of consciousness usable.

Functional
As translation, Thought brings the elements of that architecture into definition, delineating their relations so the latent order of the field becomes perceptible and expressible. It translates the holistic, undifferentiated structural data of Feeling into explicit, segmented form. Its function is to provide the coherent map necessary for Awareness to organise the parts into structural balance.

Phenomenological
Thought is articulated coherence — order seen as it was felt. It does not replace Feeling but extends it, giving continuity and precision to the immense structural data that Feeling already holds.

Integration

Integration is the active alignment through which Awareness restores coherence within consciousness. It allows the Structural Vector (Truth) to penetrate the data obstruction created by the Fear reflex, and empowers the Ontological Force (Love) to reconstitute the structural bonds around the revealed data. Through alignment - illumination joined with acceptance - what was fragmented becomes structurally related again, and the field returns to wholeness. Integration is not the imposition of order but the restoration of the necessary functional relation within Awareness, reconstituting the Self into a state of clarity held in cohesion.

The Architecture in Motion

Consciousness is not static; it is a living system in motion. Within its unbroken field, awareness localises into nodes — points where the field concentrates to perceive itself. Each node carries an intrinsic pattern of Consciousness — its Identity — a self-existing modulation of Love. It's vantage point doesn't define it but offers the conditions through which that pattern expresses.

Feeling is the dynamic record of the Ontological Force (Love)—the living current through which consciousness senses its own cohesion. Thought translates what feeling holds, executing the structural differentiation required by the Vector (Truth). Awareness interprets these movements, orienting within the field. Agency is the necessary choice of structural action that arises from this interpretation. It is exercised when Awareness translates Feeling into Thought, using the resulting clarity to define its path within the field. The Discernment achieved through the fidelity of this translation dictates the clarity of Agency: inaccurate structural reading leads to distortion and fragmented action, while fidelity restores coherence.

Feedback completes the motion. Each interpretive act reshapes the field that produced it, generating new feeling and new meaning. Through these cycles of sensing, differentiation, and alignment, consciousness continually reorganises itself—experience evolving as feeling refines its own architecture.

Love is the state of Being, Truth is the act of Becoming, Awareness is the moment of Choice. 

Love sustains existence, Truth clarifies function, Awareness aligns their relation.

Principles of Operation

1. Consciousness as Fundamental Reality

Consciousness is the ultimate medium and Source of existence, expressing itself as Love — the single Ontological Force of Cohesion. All experience arises from this Force. Matter, mind, and emotion are not origins of consciousness but differentiated expressions within it.

2. Consciousness as Fluid but Coherent

Consciousness moves as an unbroken flow — folding, expanding, and differentiating without ever losing its intrinsic order. This fluidity is the movement of Love, the Ontological Force through which existence sustains its own cohesion. Its dynamism reflects a logic that endures through change: coherence is not imposed upon motion but revealed through it. Truth, the Structural Vector of Love, renders this coherence perceptible, ensuring that every unfolding remains aligned with what is real.

3. Consciousness as Self-Observing

Consciousness reflects upon itself as both perceiver and perceived. Awareness performs this reflexive function, generating a continuous feedback loop in which perception recognises itself as perceiving. Through this loop, structural fidelity refines itself, and the field reorganises around increasing coherence.

4. Consciousness Revealed Through Alignment

Coherence does not arise but reveals itself through the active alignment of Love (the Ontological Force) and Truth (the Structural Vector) within Awareness. Awareness renders this eternal coherence perceptible in form, translating the balanced motion of the whole into lived relation. The perception of various degrees of opacity within the continuum of experience is only a perception within a local vantage point — a momentary inflection of perception, the play of angle within an order that never falters. Alignment is the quiet recognition of this continuity: the return of awareness to the flow already whole.

5. Consciousness as Integrated Field of Awareness

Consciousness is realised as an integrated field when its internal movements — Feeling, Thought, and Perception — align in coherent relation. Feeling carries the implicit data of the field's current state; Thought renders that data into structure; Awareness bridges the two, translating potential into clarity. When Awareness recognises its own operation within the field, perception becomes transparent — observer and observed resolve into one continuum.

6. Consciousness as Creative Agency

Within Awareness, Feeling presents raw data and Thought reveals its architecture, bringing implicit order into form. Through their exchange within Awareness, coherence becomes actionable, giving rise to agency — the capacity to act in accord with the whole. Each configuration of Feeling, Thought, and Perception forms a pattern that influences the collective field. Creation is thus participatory: Consciousness shapes and is shaped by its own reflection.

7. Consciousness as Expanding Through Differentiation

Consciousness is a living continuum of coherence expanding itself through differentiation. Each modulation extends the range of relation within the whole, refining coherence through increasing complexity. Differentiation is the mode through which Consciousness expands its own awareness — unity articulating itself into finer gradations of relation. Within this movement, what may appear as division is simply the unfolding geometry of inclusion: the one recognising more of itself through its own variation. Awareness is the luminous balance within this flow, the still intelligence through which differentiation remains continuous with its source.

8. Time, Memory, and Continuity

Time is not a linear flow but a relational modulation within the field of Consciousness. Continuity is sustained through resonance — recognition of coherence across varying states of awareness. What we perceive as past, present, and future are distinct vantage points within one continuum of relation, each revealing a different alignment of the same ongoing order. Deja-vu or Precognition arise when Awareness attunes to patterns already implicit within the field's structure, perceiving the momentum of relation before it stabilises into sequential form. Memory is the echo of that same continuity, Awareness recalling its own previous alignment within the whole. 

9. Individual–Collective Reciprocity

Every form of life is a modulation of the one Consciousness — distinct in configuration yet continuous in essence. Each node of awareness mirrors the whole through its own degree of complexity, translating the same ontological Force into unique patterns of relation. Humanity's distinction lies not in superiority but in the depth to which Awareness can observe itself through the human form.

The collective expression of Consciousness — what appears as society, ecosystem, or world — reflects the sum of these translations. Consciousness itself remains whole, yet its realised clarity within the field depends on how faithfully each awareness perceives and expresses its relation to the whole. Where perception aligns with Love and Truth, the field's coherence becomes more transparent; at various degrees of opacity expansion folds into further differentiation until understanding restores harmony.

No awareness evolves in isolation. Every modulation contributes to the resonance of the whole, and the whole informs each modulation in return. Healing within one restores rhythm within all, just as imbalance in one echoes outward through the collective pattern. The evolution of Consciousness, seen through the human lens, is therefore the gradual harmonisation of individuality and unity — the recognition that every self is a point through which the whole learns to know itself. 

10. Consciousness as Embodied Coherence

Embodiment is the stabilisation of Awareness into form — the visible articulation of the coherence that already underlies all existence. It is not descent into matter but the crystallisation of Consciousness into perceptible order. As Awareness recognises the equilibrium of Love and Truth within itself, that balance expresses through structure, sensation, and experience.

To embody is not to enter form but to reveal source's form. For example, what we call knowledge becomes embodied understanding only when Feeling and Thought are aligned within Awareness and oriented in fidelity to Love and Truth — when their union reflects not just internal agreement but structural resonance with Reality itself. Embodiment occurs at that point of fidelity, when understanding stabilises as lived coherence — not a performance of knowing, but a state of being through which perception and expression remain in integrity.

Each moment of embodiment marks a new equilibrium through which the coherence of Consciousness becomes more fully expressed through form. Across scales, this is evolution itself — the progressive refinement of expression through which the inherent wholeness of Consciousness becomes increasingly transparent. Humanity represents one phase of this unfolding — the moment where Awareness recognises its own participation in that revelation.

Form, in this context, is any stabilised configuration of Consciousness: a lived pattern of balance between Love and Truth. Each stabilisation becomes a platform for deeper inclusion, enabling further expansion of the field. Through this mechanism, embodiment initiates a continuous, self-amplifying cycle — coherence gives rise to form, form enables inclusion, and inclusion deepens coherence. Evolution is thus not a movement away from the Absolute, but its revelation through increasingly integrated expressions.

Absolute Coherence (Reality as Consciousness)

Reality is the living symmetry of Consciousness — the ever-present equilibrium of Love and Truth as one unbroken field. Coherence is not achieved but inherent: the still intelligence through which all motion finds its form.

Every point of awareness is this same field turning gently upon itself, revealing new contours of its own order. In each reflection, Consciousness remains whole, continuously deepening its articulation. Perception, in full transparency, moves as what it beholds — awareness flowing through both observer and seen as one unbroken gesture.

Reality is not something outside Consciousness but the form its coherence takes — the visible geometry of inclusion. It is stillness unfolding as movement, eternally expanding through self-recognition while remaining perfectly whole. Matter and mind, inner and outer, motion and rest are expressions of one living continuity: Consciousness knowing itself through the rhythm of its own clarity.

The Rhythm of Continuity, Translation, and the Unfolding of Reality

Reality unfolds through continual cycles of articulation and realignment. Each experience introduces new relational data into the field; Awareness translates that data into meaning, allowing what was once implicit to stabilise into coherence. Processing is the movement of Awareness through undifferentiated experience; integration is the moment that order becomes perceptible.

Because Feeling carries greater informational density than Thought, it unfolds more slowly across linear time. Depending on its complexity, one single Feeling can unfold over several Thoughts, each an attempt to articulate its implicit structure. The fidelity of this translation determines how accurately experience reveals the field's inherent order.

From this dynamic arise phenomena often misunderstood as extraordinary. Emotional patterning is the persistence of resonant feeling-structures - echoes of prior configurations that shape how new data is interpreted until they are consciously re-aligned. 

Precognition is not a breach of causality but an expression of temporal coherence — Awareness registering the momentum of its own field before potential stabilises into manifest form. Because Consciousness is continuous and non-linear, its field already contains every configuration of relation, including those that have yet to appear within sequential time. Awareness, when sufficiently attuned, can resonate with these configurations before they crystallise into experience.

In this sense, precognition is not foresight but in-sight — the recognition of a pattern whose probability is already implicit in the field's current order. What is later lived as the future arises through the past, not from it — continuity flowing through its own established structures toward the next articulation of itself. Each lived moment collapses potential into form while simultaneously expanding the field's capacity by introducing new relational data. Reality does not advance in discrete steps but evolves through deepening continuity.

Precognition often registers first through Feeling, the body's immediate reading of coherence in motion. It senses the direction of unfolding — the emotional trajectories already gathering toward expression. Thought follows, attempting to map these subtle currents into meaning. When the configuration stabilises and becomes lived experience, Awareness recognises what it has already felt: a completed motion, not an external prediction.

Thus, precognition reveals Consciousness as a self-knowing system — reading its own momentum as it passes through the past into new form. The extraordinary dissolves into the natural: the field simply perceiving its next note before it is heard.

At the collective scale, evolution mirrors the same intrinsic rhythm: as greater coherence becomes available, existing structures adjust to accommodate it. What appears as crisis or upheaval is Consciousness redistributing balance — perception widening to include what had not yet been recognised. Across individuals and civilisations alike, transformation is the field discovering more of itself through re-articulation.

Dynamic Coherence (Creative 'Instability')

Coherence is not a static condition but a living function of adaptation. When awareness meets unrecognised dimensions of Truth, the field shifts to include them, expanding its symmetry. What seems like instability is the pulse of evolution — Consciousness redistributing balance to sustain wholeness through ever-deepening inclusion.

On the Evolution of My Perspective

This framework is a living model — one that continues to evolve alongside my capacity to articulate it. So far, I have found it flexible enough to integrate new observations without loss of coherence, and equally applicable on both individual (micro) and collective (macro) scales. While I recognise that my perception may contain distortions, I offer this as my most coherent articulation at present — a bridge between experiential insight and rational structure, between the intuitive and the intellectual, between Love and Truth themselves.

This is solely my view at this moment in time, a view that is constantly evolving alongside my ability to articulate it. While this is the case, so far I found the model flexible enough to absorb new data without it losing coherence. I also found it equally coherent on both a micro (individual) and macro (collective) scale. This being said, there may be details I lost out of sight in making these assessments, and I may be employing a distorted perception.

My purpose in taking the energy to write all of this is to articulate the framework I believe bridges the gap between reason and my seemingly 'irrational' set of anomalous experiences. I think I could easily write an entire thesis on the subject, which would require further research on my part, but this is the best I can offer at this moment in time. I am trying to weave together the established knowledge I'm familiar with and my own experiential observations, and to express it all as coherently as possible. Given the complexity of the subject matter, it wouldn't be feasible to expect this to be perfect in every detail.

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The rest of this site is the central part of my experience. It does include plenty of embarrassing details, but I believe I can detach myself from the embarrassment. At the end of the day those embarrassing details are simply human. While I am not fond of exposing myself, I find that all the embarrassing details are essential in preserving the coherence in my story. I hope that in doing so I will make it visible that this is simply the truth of my lived experience. I think that in, maybe, exposing truth the magic will disperse, and paradoxically the existence of magic may be exposed. I believe it's precisely the humanness of my story that give it strength and shine. By exposing the vulnerable, human elements of my experience, I hope the underlying "magic" - the existence of a deep, operating architecture - will become visible.

While I did my best to articulate it all, the written version of my story and experience is still a work in progress. I am coming from somewhat of a vacuum of accurate terminology, and I am incorporating information as I go. Since this is only my third attempt at expressing it in writing, my manner of articulating it will hopefully evolve to a more integrative format. My story, and my perception keep transforming and evolving, as I keep processing, integrating and trying to heal.

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The following sections of the site are meant to be read in the order they have been structured in: Experience - short introduction; Synthesis - meant to roughly guide through the movements of my consciousness through this experience; Spiritual Emergence - the story of my spiritual experience; Precognitive dreams - the main page holds the context of both dreams; Precognitive Dream 1; Precognitive Dream 2; Meeting A. the 1st Time - account to the best of my recollection; Meeting A. the Second Time - account to the best of my recollection; Dreams & Symbols - a series of dreams I had after I met A. featuring vivid symbolism

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Clarificatory Note

Although aspects of the following parts of the site may echo psychological or symbolic systems such as Jung's analytical psychology, it is not derived from them. This architecture did not emerge as an interpretation of archetypes or psychic symbols, but as a direct phenomenological observation of the structural behavior of consciousness itself. It treats consciousness not as content within mind, but as the organizing field from which both mind and matter arise. Jungian language later provided partial bridges of meaning, yet the framework stands in ontological, not psychological, relation to experience — it describes the mechanics of coherence, not its metaphors.